Homily
1st Sunday of Advent C1
1 December 2024
St. Ann Catholic Church - Prairie Village
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Who is knocking at the door of your heart?
It can be terrifying when someone knocks on the door by surprise. Actually very few of us get excited for a surprise visit. We are scared that we are not ready, and that we might be vulnerable and out of control. One of my most depressing days as chaplain at KU was when at an evangelization meeting, we asked how many students knew their neighbor, or the person sitting next to them in class. We were talking about the art of relationship, and the best ways to introduce one's self and to start a conversation. Very few college students knew the persons they were in close proximity to, so I asked them why. They told me it was dangerous to introduce yourself, for once someone knows who you are, they can stalk you and harm you. It's safer to be anonymous, they said.
The conversation broke my heart. I get what they were saying. We live in a dangerous world, and you have to be careful who you interact with. So many people get harmed by situations when they assume the other person is safe, and they're not. Yet still, our ultimately security is knowing the people around us, and building trust. Social distancing, and avoiding, escaping and hiding from each other, is certain death. For we are made for relationship, and the deepest problems we all face can't be solved by self-reliance. We need each other, and a relationship with God. Our deepest security, and best chance for new life and more life, is if someone want to know and love and serve us, if someone is knocking on the door of our heart.
Advent announces the best news ever! Our Lord is coming to save us, and is knocking on the door of my heart! The one who alone brings new life, new hope, and can make all things new by the greatness of his mercy, is coming. He has come, is coming now, and will come again! The Lord our Savior has come in history, is coming in mystery and will come in majesty, to redeem my past, my present and my forever! Of all people knocking at my heart, his visit is the most urgent, the most powerful and the most hopeful. How do I respond to this incredible news? This is the great question of Advent.
The scriptures today name where my heart is, and perhaps yours as well! I am afraid. I am desperately afraid. I am terrified of this Jesus who is knocking on the door of my heart. My Advent prayer is rarely to beg Jesus to come closer, and to come sooner, and to actually mean it. Instead, it is a constant plea that I am not ready, and that He is a threat to my control and self-reliance. My prayer is usually to tell Jesus not now, and to leave me alone!
The one thing I most need to break out of the way I am now, and to live for more, is the thing I most fear. Jesus is standing at the door of my heart, knocking on this first day of Advent. How will I respond to His coming anew this Advent?
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